Do we have to decide..??

Silent grizzles of sheikful shatters
Shutter my mind with the faded fathoms
faitess fire and dicieving wind
Wind me up in a prison bonded
Sailing through this mind full of anxiety
All I am left with is the darkness inside me
Millions come and billions go
Getting away with miracles and passing chances to be powerful
Pleaured I feel in being one of the same
Sour though it feels for not making a leap of faith..
For its so much easier to live and blame
But because otherwise you might repent

So somtimes you feel numb
Numb like you have a lot of power inside
You but your still like a corpse..
Because you have to decide what you would do with it
But you leave it to fate to decide if you should
Its painless
The pain is the feeling itself
You dont want to know whats happening to the world or even yourself
Because somehow all we can wish for is to escape thoughts..
To live life like the dead
Peacefull and powerless
Just wish that somehow all of this passes fades
And after sometime when we resume this time we have the position to make a choice a decision is no more and we are in a time when nothing is in our hands anymore and no matter how much we want it cant go back..
A decision is made..
That would be peaceful..
Because it is so much easier to escape the power and to accept and just learn to live with the circumstances right..??
For then we have someone to blame..
And we have to only adapt ourselves
Which is much easier….

love,
lavanya